This morning, it occurred to me that the reason I had an absolutely fabulous life to look back on was because in my 20s and 30s I was fearless. I did what I wanted and KNEW I could have anything I wanted and always lived with the mentality it is my world and anything I put my mind to is what it will be.
Then something changed in my 40s and I couldn’t figure out why I wasn’t the same. It was because I had met a man when I was on top of my game and he had broken me so much and so far down to my core that I lost something in the process …. that innocence and foundational belief system that caused me to operate from a LOVE place where very few people could, do, or understand.
It shifted and I had to regroup and it took me years to get back. The truth of the matter is, I am STILL on that journey of getting back to the unyielding peace and unconditional love energy and 4th dimensional vibration I walked in and lived in 24/hrs a day 7/days a week. I know it seems impossible, but once upon a time for me it was my reality. When I woke up from that death bed experience I was never the same.
In looking back I realize and am able to assess my SELF and self. I know what drives which energy inside of me. I know my hot spots and it clicked. I realized the obstacles, stumbling blocks, and interference were and have always been from PEOPLE…. PEOPLE…. People… and only because I ALLOWED them to be. Do mot ever give away your power by feeding into the thoughts and sentiments of who people TRY to say you are or make you out to be, of the thoughts and energy of who and what your LOWER SELF tries to make you out to be, who your EGO makes you out to be, who PRIDE makes you out to be.
You MUST be like the 3 monkeys. SEE NO EVIL in anything you look upon only the beauty, HEAR NO EVIL about yourself or others, and SPEAK NO EVIL about anyone or anything ever as much as you can help it. Keep practicing until you get it right and believe me it takes each and every day to do. Protect the LENSES of YOUR ROSE COLORED GLASSES and do not easily take them off, put them down, or cast them aside.
And finally…. Remember to be very scrutinizing of people, especially of those who find themselves scrutinizing of you. AND especially those you choose to be in your immediate circle. You may catch something from their vibrational energy that could take you years to get rid of.